man i miss the days when i wasnt parnoid. i miss the days when i could go to skool, and no matter who was absent have like 3 best friends to chill with. i miss logging on my lj, and hving like 4 comments. i miss ppl aim'ing me just to say hi, or inviting me somewhere. i mean i have friends, they just aint the same you know. i mean, i miss the kids who went to my middle skool, i miss us all being in a loop together. but when it came down to it, everyone was determined to keep in touch with everyone .... but me. now i know it sounds drastic, i dont mean to sound like theres a conspiracy, but y'know when ur out at the mall or the movies or sumthing, or ya go over someones house to drink and ya just stop for a sec and go, wait someones not here, and you think for like ten seconds, shrug and have fun w/out the mystery person. then like 2 days later someone knocks on ur door smiling like ur bestest buddies and u havnt spoken to them in like 3 weeks, and u try to b excited but all ur jokes make no sense to them and all theirs make none to u, and in the end u wish they'd just leave, and u forget them again? well i think i became that person, and i kinda hate it, cas when i go to my friends house and they give me that look that says 'oh fuck, shit how can i get you to leave, i dont feel like it rite now, its been to long' i feel ditched, and then i try to hard and end up laughing like a high person or i forget how to stop. well y'kno how ya also get annoyed when they keep coming bak, and ur like 'fuck u stalker' well sometimes u can justify the stalking
~NL~
Blog Category: Friends
Playing (Music): nothing
Current mood: reminisant and kinda sad
Added on: 20/06/2007 22:52:32
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