so my boyfriend and i had been dating for almost a year, at first i was kinda, flirty, i admit it was wrong, but he loved me and stuck by me (i was still messed up from a previous break up and was having way too much fun with being a slut). After dumping him, he stil loved me and we got together behind my new boyfriends back (not in a slutty way, in a romantic way), anyway for a long time i tld him i couldnt say i loved him cas i didint yet, after about 6 months or maybe 5 i decided i loved, him. i hadnt cheated on him or ne thing, i met his parents he met mine. everything seemed awesome, he didnt mind me being 'crazy' he said it was hott. he loved my imperfections which was awesome (i am little but) and i loved everything about himt ho my friends thought he was a geek. so i started hanging him out with my homies cas i loved um both. everything was normal, he took me bowling with his family on his bros b-day (new years day) and we went to the mall with my friends like everyfriday the next week. next time i called him he told me to check my e-mail, so i did i got this (names are changed):
NL, want to have some time just with you. I don't mind having other people most of the time, because two people alone can get boring after a while. But it gets on my nerves when it's almost impossible to get a moment alone with you, y'know?
I don't mean to be demanding, but I think our relationship is going too slow. I love you, but... I'm starting to get bored. It's not a big deal, I just wanted to tell you how I feel.
--boyfriend
so i talked to him, i apoligized and said we could definatly be together more, i liked being alone with him, he made me feel safe and loved, it was great, he was one of only like 3 ppl i trusted. but we ddnt get a chance, the day b4 i had to leave on a camping trip last friday, we had a convo on aim. i told him the convo felt strained, i told him he seemed down. he said, he wanted to just be friends. i asked him y. he said he liked me just ddnt love me and there was no reason to be together. i (stupidly) asked if there was another chick, he said hed nvr do that to me (ddnt think hed do that tho) i asked him if hed lied bout loving me, he said hed thought he did. i dont know how it could all change so drasticly in like a week. oddly, tho i cried at first i dont feel so bad. i think im in denial. i wont let ne one say ne thing bad about him yet. and i dont tell ppl we broke up unless they say somethng bout him. i lov ehim and dont want it to end. and of course every 10 minutes im reminded of him. i guess i'll b ok.
comments????
~NL~
Blog Category: Romance and Relationships
Playing (Music): flyleaf
Current mood: discontent
Added on: 24/01/2007 16:58:35
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