time for another one of my boring blogs. There has been something on my mind for a long time about people who are "non-conformist," myself being one.
Has anyone besides me seen that almost tries to play off as a "rebel" or "outcast," yet they have friends, and habg around "othe non-conformist." It seems that people saying they do not conform to normal ideas have now become the people that others hang around.
Of course, this isn't entirely true. There are the people out there who say that the way they dress makes people not talk to them. Have those people stopped to think that maybe they won't give themselves a chance. I go to a school where it is 90% preps; the rest being punk or goth; myself in the latter group.
I was sulking with the other "outcast" at the lunch one day, when I thought, "What the FUCK am I doing just sitting here, living a miserable life?! Fuck this, I'm going to make some friends I can hang out with on the weekends and go to concerts with and other shit, no matter who they are."
I stood up and walked over to a different table, that of the super-preps, as I call them. there parents pay for everything from their cell-phone bill, to their nice new cars. Of course they looked at me like I was weird at first, but soon a conversation popped up that I knew I could put my words in and people wouldn't laugh or say anything. Once I realized that, I started to make friends with people from the preps, wiggers, nerds; really anyone that I wanted to talk to.
Before, my life was just alot of bull-shit of my life being terrible because of past things, nights spent cutting myself and suicide attempts. Now that I have friends who actually care, instead of the losers who loved to see me depressed-who, I still congregate with; I don't have to be angry at the "system" and all of that type of shit.
In case you are wondering, I still put myself as a gothic person, I still go to concerts of bands that I love, and don't act a different way around my different friends. I still hate white people who try to act black though, that really pisses me off.
Blog Category: Life
Playing (Music): Just watching the way people act.
Current mood: grateful
Added on: 17/05/2006 15:10:02
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