The Other Side of my Mind
The Other Side of my Mind
I awoke today with tear stained eyes. And began to block out half my mind. I focused on the day ahead but then realized the day was dead. People that surrounded me gave me looks of hopeless defeat. They ushered away words they felt that would offend my gracious welps of defeat and agony. If they only knew what bothered me. They think that I am much to young, they think they are the only ones who know the pain and have felt the jab of haunting thoughts that anything but lack the hurt in me. I can no longer tolerate these feeling of immense hate. So in a hopeless oblivion of fear Ill close my mind and only hear my own dreams of victorious endings of part of me.
Not so very long ago I let you in. I let you in.
And this is how you left me.
Not so very long ago you felt for me, you felt for me.
And for you I fell. cant you remember anything?
Not so very long ago I dreamt of you, I dreamt of you.
In the that dream your memory I killed.
Tomorrow Ill rise again. Ill rise again. My biggest fear since you left is only within myself. I fear to touch the wheel for fear of driving down the lonely road to nowhere. The road where I know I belong, the road that crashes against nothing. I fear to touch the gun for fear of my own forsaking mind that only hears the hurt in me and cant see past what use to be. The side that won't listen to the faint beat of heart thats left in me. There is hope in knowing memories sometimes die.
Not so very long ago I let you in. I let you in.
And this is how you left me.
Not so very long ago you felt for me. You felt for me.
And for you I fell. cant you remeber anything?
Not so very long ago I dreamt of you. I dreamt of you.
in the dream your memory I killed
I dont blame you for what I feel, I only blame this hurting me. This me that I myself do fear. this side of me I cant conltrol this side of me that won't let go. The side of me that just wont die until i take a hold this knife. I must slice away piece my piece your memory. If i want to live I must choose to die. Kill my one my only truthful side. Its like you controled this part of me, the part of me that wont let me sleep. It tells my mind my to just hold on, just sit and wait there by the phone. Youll come back but when you leave I know you'll take BOTH sides of me. Next Time
Blog Category: Quiz/Survey
Current mood: confused
Added on: 01/06/2006 19:36:13
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