God, So Fucking Confused
Hooked up with David.
Wtf.
fell for david.
Bigger WTF.
would of hooked up with david regardless of being just a hookup
but told i was more
felt like a stupid whiny chick when it hurt
like a bitch
to be called just a hookup, this sucks pretty fucking hard
then on my birthday
hooked up with my ex boyfriend.
don't remember shit
was so drunk and high
i didn't know what was happening
people are saying he took advantage of me, and that he's an ass
but i don't know.
sat on his lap, because he was warm and i wanted to sleep
next thing i know we're in a room on a bed
with him on top of me taking my shirt off while i was just want to go sleep
and then i wake up the next morning highly hungover in my bed
i guess i got sick though
and passed out
i NEVER throw up from alcohol
only whiskey
i had absolute mandarin
first time having it so maybe thats why
but i don't know... i still like David and i really really really want to know why. I hate feeling helpless and confused, and bigger shit has happened to me. This is like a fucking paper clip compared to my past so why am I getting so distressed at this small prospect? Maybe its because I'm finally getting attention from people as "more than a friend" and finally i got confident and started to be more outgoing in talking to people and such
and now i'm coming off as a slutty tease.
and this sucks
am i just passing over something with richie? he likes me more than he should
and i don't wanna hurt him
Blog Category: Romance and Relationships
Added on: 24/12/2007 14:45:26
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