cutting up backstabbers in a gravel driveway = good
so. all that suspicion of maggie and scruffy wasnt unfounded. they were fucking around. i know i wasnt dating him, but for her it was still REALLY wrong. she almost fucked him, and she has a boyfriend.
i got over it really quick. which is probably messed up in a mental health sense but i like it this unaffected emotionaless way. i figure im better off. not dating him, or trusting her.
i dont figure i trust anyone anymore. maybe mini. maybe.
deep down inside i guess i doubt everything. except maybe God.
no xcept God.
watever. so now i need a summer activity (boytoy)
time to go boyhunting.
the only thing that rly pisses me off about this... was me looking like an idiot.
oh and incedently poozer txtd me yesterday.
~!NL?!~
Blog Category: Romance and Relationships
Playing (Music): skinny little bitch - angelspit
Current mood: creepily fine
Added on: 20/05/2008 20:50:37
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cutting ur friends up in a gravel driveway = bad
so....yea.
i was a little pathetically wemotional yesterday. tha kid i like asked me out about a week and a half ago and i turned him down. i was worried about having to dump him in the future. and he obviously likes my friend now. (how easily forgetable am i?) and she is like a really touchy physical person so it always seems like shes hitting on people weven if she isnt trying to and well i got a little pissy.
she slept over his house and wouldnt stop talking about what a great time she had. so at the end of the night i just snapped. dont worry i didnt hurt her. tho as u can tell from my subject i really kinda wanted to.
but we've made up. im still upset about tha dude but im a lot happier today and pretty hopeful, i gues.
except for the fact that my laptop is like broken. so i will be updating even less. i know. i am like so bad at mataining my blog.
well now im over gerimines. her and mini are going at it and i am amusing myself with the computer.
so stuf on vampirefreaks.com is going well. its a little easier to chill on that site cas people actuallly comment and message me opften so like everytime i logg on i have stuff to do. plus their cult idea is awesome. if PR.org thot of sumthing like that well it'd be kewl.
but i still love punkrock.org their my blogging refuge. the only place i can like write shit oput because none i kno chills on here. well maggie has a profile but she doesnt use it shes too busy with myspace.
speaking of which she made a ducttape ring, which is pretty fucking kewl and fits perfectly. i think my hands are getting smaller from all the weight im losing (thats right folks im no longer quite as big of a fat ass :)))
i've also been pretty happy with my diet like its actually fine, i dont really resent it and i think i might be able to do this for the rest of my life.
geri thinks i type too fast lawl. its cas i blog so much. go lame kids.
latley i've really been feeling a metal concert with some booze and moshing. call me an idealist but that'd l;ike the almost perfect time right now.
i wonder how long i can make this blog i honestly have nothing to do. at all. on friday i went to the andy warhol museum with rachel from skewl. we chilled downtown until the discount started running at 5. it was alot of fun and we took tons of pictures with her camera. we even walked to the toystore where liz works tho i ddnt kno she worked there b4 we got inside and saw her. haha.
i am so broke latley.like honestly i have no money. not one penny. i have to fill out my work permit and get a fucking job. i also REALLY need to get my fucking permit but im like to lazy to do that. besides i dont see myself getting a car anytime soon since my dad says we are super mutherfucking moneyless. oh, and my bro and sis were taken to jail recently. they tazorer squeege and took joe for no fucking reason. gosh i fucking hate cops so much.
like me and scruffy and magz were at the park about a week or 2 ago, and they tryed getting in our faces saying we were making out in front of little kids. which is bullshit. i was fucking sleeping. so i got in his face. very politly and was like stfu i ddnt do that.
fat ass cop. hate em.
im listening to P!ATD for the happy factor its pretty nice. wow mini and geri got real fckin quiet. i dont kno if i shud turn around O.o
not that i really mind. im tempted to go on VF and message some people.
okei. i think i'll do that. i wonder if this is my longest blog?
idk. mayb :))
~!NL!~
Blog Category: Romance and Relationships
Playing (Music): P!ATD
Current mood: mostly okei
Added on: 18/05/2008 12:38:57
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dirty glove rhymes with love
so, i meta kid i liek his name is steven or scruffy haahaa. hes nice. his hands are okei. he wears 2 dirty finerless gloves all tha time, one red and white one black and white. he is taller than me and one year older. we dont go to the same skewl. hes very ticklish, but not the best kisser. he likes the idea of communism. he has a futon. i no loner feel like bloggin. tho i must admit i am a little confused about him now. oh and as for poozer hes "scared of all tha metal"
~!NL?~
Blog Category: Romance and Relationships
Playing (Music): icky thump-the white stripes
Current mood: indecisive
Added on: 03/05/2008 23:26:19
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