There is hope!
Okay so I have to say I met the most interesting man on thursday night. His name is Mark and he has a band called The Shackeltons. It has been so long since I felt I could openly talk to or discuss anything with a man. I spent only a short time with him but WOW. I think he has a girlfriend so he is off limits but I want to get to know this guy. I also met another guy, Jeff, he didn't make too much of an impression on me. I am distancing myself from the first guy. I truly hope to get a chance to spend sometime getting to know Mark. He is amazing to communicate with. I am at work, where there is MUCH DRAMA!
Blog Category: Life
Current mood: contemplative
Added on: 21/08/2006 16:22:39
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Another day in paradise
So whats up? I have proved yet again that I am a completely irrational. I have gone back yet again for i apparently have become a devoted masochist. I guess it is hard to pass up sex when it is good and plentiful. So seriously though what is everyone thoughts on this whole middle eastern thing? There is the war and the whole isreal thing, but what about Iran? I fear this may push things just a little too far. How can they try to fight allover the fucking place without the draft? It is coming and I for one am ready to head to Canada. It is just getting too crazy around this country. Then there is talk of Condeleeza Rice running for election. Oh hell no. That stupid bitch needs to stay away from the very thought. But the sad truth is who will run? Someone will have to win. Who will take over? I cannot even come up with 1 person I would run as a candidate. Can you? So well.......it is tuesday so I will be out tonight listening to bad kareoke and drinking. I know it is lame but I live in CHAMBERSBURG, PA so what do you want right? Well take it easy.........Bye!
Blog Category: Life
Current mood: discontent
Added on: 15/08/2006 14:24:49
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What was I thinking
Okay so last time I told you guys about this guy I was "seeing". WoW! I feel stupid. I saw a whole different side to him last night. I went to the local bar with several friends and, get this, I know it is hard to fathom, I drank beer. Even better than that: I GOT DRUNK!!!! Which, trust me I was totally cool with. But when he got there at 11 he looks at me and says: "You are fucking drunk. I am going to tell the bartender to cut you off. You need to sober up." Now I could understand if I was that bad off. I wasn't I had split 3 pitchers of beer with a friend over a period of two and 1/2 hours. I was like back off there darlin' nobody screws with my beer. Then he pouted and told me not to touch him and that I was not his girl. At this point I was rejoicing at the fact, and told him so. Well this is where it gets interesting. Even though I was so over being in his presence.....I still really wanted some mindless no strings sex. Hey I am human, right? Well so I go back to his place and we screw. Then he puts his hand over my heart and says, with a straight face, no less: "I think you are getting feelings for me in here and you need to stop that." I busted up laughing and assured him that was very untrue. So thats the story and we shall see how it ends, but trust me it is ending. I need for now to surround myself with cool, decent, & interesting people.
Blog Category: Life
Playing (Music): Flogging Moly Drunken Lullabies
Current mood: restless
Added on: 11/08/2006 12:36:56
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So....this is as good as it gets?
Today I realized with mixed emotions this glaring truth. I am truly a fucked up individual. I guess that was unavoidable. My divorce was final on June 5, 2006. I wasted 4 or so years on a dying dream, then quickly backed away like I was running for my life. I guess in a way I was. I have a decent job making decent money for the most part. I am a banker. Yes I hate it but it pays the bills and supplies beer and marlboro lights. So okay I kicked my cheating worthless ex out and decide to not get envolved with anyone till I am back to even with myself. Man I am stupid because......well I met this guy and true to my stupid self I throw caution and good judgement to the wind and hop into bed and not alone. We make all these long conversations about how this is just a short term thing and how neither of us could commit and blah blah blah. Now don't get me wrong I enjoy cheap mindless sex probably more than the average person. But where is the line? Now we are making plans and seeing more and more of each other. Its like I can't stop myself. I am not even sure I want to. i am drawn not only physically but mentaly. I am starved for intellegent conversation and he is very stimulating. I feel torn. Like I am two people. One is reaching for him the other is pulling away. At home I have 3 adult roomates and 1 child. I have no private space or shred of alone time. I feel like I may just flip out. Hopefully it wont be that bad................. .
Reading (Books): Hunter S Thompson's Hey Rube
Current mood: contemplative
Added on: 09/08/2006 12:01:48
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